My Life, My World

Just over four months ago I experienced what I can only be described as the worse thing ever in my life so far.  Prior to that, the worst thing I’d experienced was watching my father waste away to cancer, which I thought would be the worst thing ever in my life.

I was listening to a radio program this week and they mentioned that the saddness and misery that we experience in our daily lives is a result of man being a sinful creature and it all goes back to Adam and Eve.  The point of the broadcast was to emphasize that it is God’s plan to bring his glory into all situations, good and bad.  Given such understanding, Christians should recognize and acknowledge that before bad things happen, so that they find themselves better prepared to weather such storms.

In my experience, the rebirth of my faith is what got my through my ordeal.  As I sat in the middle of what can only be described as the darkest of darkness in my life, I just knew what I needed to do.  I could have reacted in many different ways, many negative ways.  Some of those negative reactions appeal to me even now, but I have the ability, thanks to God, to recognize them as the wrong thing to do.  However, I still fight these negative urges on a daily basis and I suspect that will continue for the rest of my life, based upon my discussion with friends who have been through similar situations.

In the last four months, I’ve done my best to change my outlook on life, attend my church regularly and put God first in all things in my life.  Today, as I sat reflecting on the words of a religious program I was listening to, I looked out the window at the clearing horizon just after a thunderstorm and I had the feeling that I’m just taking the first few steps toward rediscovering life.  I’m not exactly sure where this feeling came from, but I have an idea.  The feeling was definitely a good feeling and it definitely brought about more than a little excitement.

More to follow….